My Friday.

Went down to Bq wit Gwen & Liping to finish our martell (the bottle of sorrow).




!! mao mao paw paw !! I want tht !!!!! So cute !!!


Drink drank drunk? No la i dont think so. or perhaps i did? I just love those beads~~!!


Huugggsss~~
会玩会笑也会哭! ^^

生病了!
好难喝的 ''zi zi'' 水. *ycuks ycuks*

人不像人, 鬼不像鬼.


''IC pls?''
-_-|||
Psss...


Its time for hair treatment~

Yawns.

=X

Fever attack~
Sore throat~

so uncomfortable.

宅吗?

My current goal:
See how many shades fairer i can get!
(dumb i know. but nth pretty much i wanna focus now.)

I'm very hardworking in my whitening regime!
Yeah!

把回忆都带走, 不要让我独自承受...

I always thought i did nothing much as compare to him, now did i realize, wad i've done is not visible to bare eyes as compared.

心情并没有好一些, 坐在电脑前还是会想 ''我很笨''.
屋子里的每个角落, 都有丢不掉的画面.
时时还会哭红了眼.

对自己说, 不会沉默太久.
明天的我一个人依然会微笑. <-- Gracie, does tis rings a bell? =p

Alrite sleeping now.
to welcome a better tml!

Dear All,
Nitey!

When will wet pillow nights and puffy eyes morning end?

我也不懂我这麽可以笨到这样.
The numerous reasons suddenly seem to have become lies unfolding before my eyes.

- Pls don let ur lack of self confidence affect the way u see my love and wad i have done for u. Thats very unfair for me.
- If u r really wad u say, a mr goody, devoted guy, then dont push me away for the god damn sake, using the typical sentence '' i wan u to find a better guy '' ''im willing to let u go for i love u so'' CRAP OK tt doesnt fcuking work on me. Not even a single bit.
-ur promises lingers, ur good remains bcos i dont have STM, i'll always remember who r the one who treats me well. So that countless times of saying ''U love me'' are actually entertaining words? (see i told u so dont belittle my stingy ''ILoveU'', 1 times is so much powerful than ur fcuking countless useless time)

''i do want to believe u didnt change a single bit, just like who u r when u gave me the book.''

then why do u have to do tis right before my eyes, why dont u actually cherish the chances i give u times and again and till now..
the more chances i give u, the more times im allowing u to hurt me.


说好的幸福呢?
genting? holidays? Ya rite. tis always happens to me.

I wun get to go to wherever as promised.
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**i know i've been crapping much on fb and my blog these few days, and i know i will find it damn childish and silly after i m ok..(as always). pls pardon me. i need to shoutout badly if not i will turn crazy, afterall, im just a gal. lemme for once do it the gals way. =X**

Special thanks to: my everyone for ur concern.
Special special thanks to: Banana for the conversation on msn tt day and did u purposely called to tell me abt the vouchers to perk me up n tok to me craps on CT passport when u don normally do tht... scared i will kill myself arh?
hahas.
Gracie for going out wit me to drink despite having tummy ache even when it means leaving u 2 hrs to sleep, even when u dont drink, even when u r fcuking tired, listening to my craps. <3s u.

when u r in r/s, u r no longer alone. As much as u wish to lead life as per normal, if u really love tht person, u wun be able to do it. Bcos u will start to spare a thought for them too. Its not about being u urself only.

One fine example:
U might love tossing and rolling when u r sleeping alone, but when there is someone beside u, unknowingly u will restrict urself, as u don wanna hit them. Not only that u might be waking up to check if he/she have kick off the blanket, worrying tht he/she might catch a cold.

Though u might not be able to sleep as comfortably as u do alone, but u do feel bliss and happy. And its the feeling tht is strong enough to keep u warm and allowing u to give the full blanket to ur other half, isnt it?

yes i m good at giving advice, all this craps, coming to my own r/s its thrash. argh fcuk it. i can do w/o guys. lalalala~

do u know how much courage and how much im hurting for me to say good bye to this relationship?

i wish my mum would understand this and not base on wad she ''see''
stop deciding my life for me, u can scold me for everything i do wrong, smoking, being rude and so on, but please let me have the last say in my own relationship.
how would anyone know wad happen between us?

stories are just wad u heard and words can be made up to hide the truth from harsh reality.

to him,
if u really think about what i have said before and repeated myself times and again, u would have respect my decision.
i tried. i really tried.

im tired.




lettimehealthewound.

Sometimes its better not to know too much.

Tsk tsk tsk~

Depressed.

''u have long forgotten wad i have done for u. u are not me, u have no right to say all these to me, bcos u'll nv be able to understand wad i've gone through. lemme be the bad person, i dont cr, im left wit no energy to fight back, wadever memories, impression u have, let it be, i dont intend to explain anymore.''

YESH IM A BAD PERSON SO WAD?!

i don cr wad people see of me in their eyes. he who sees it sees it, he who doesnt, let it be.
everybody have their own ways of doing things.

i dont cr if people hate me, treat me as an enemy,
i hate no one in my life. And i mean .. NO ONE.

ifanyonethinkucanunderstandmeireallyneedashouldertocryon.
whatidontneedmostnowislisteningearsandendlessadvice.

**i passed u th knife to stab me**

iwishtimecanpassfaster.
letithealmywoundonceagain.

Immune or just a fool?

I aint expecting too much isnt it?
When u make a promise, keep it.
If u cant do it, dont promise.
Simple!

why m i giving u another.. another.. another.. yet another.. chance to hurt me again and again.

$%^&*()%$#wkbkybk,dtjz.#$%$bxrnjdwdsx.$@#%*

=(

HAIZ!

@#$%^&*yshdwdx@#$%^*%

Training days!

Monday & Tuesday, training days!

Day 1
Messy! So?


Hidden in a corner! the black stairway! Smoking area.



Day 2
I'm a mummy girl.
Mum sent me to training, then went to work. After tht, waited for an hour or so to send me to bbdc. (She is worry tht i dono how to go. LOL)

I PASSED MY BTE! CAN GO TAKE BTT LIAO!

After that went down to Grandma house.
Wonderful!
Grandma 最疼我了. ^^ Loves her!




Date with my ''hubby'' today successful. FUN! update tml~
So tired.

Nitex2